Friday, 10 July 2009


Drugs are bad.

We all know that, and not matter what justification one makes, they will always have long or short term effects; Addiction, Heart problems, Death. People know this and still do them. Doing some of the "weaker" drugs like weed will inevitably result in the harder drugs like heroin.

What do you do with a freind who is doing drugs? when you cant get it into their head that they should stop, they keep giving reasons that they should carry on, each reason worse than the last. What do you do when you know that they are the sort of person who will get addicted, they will end up on the harder drugs, and they will end up fucking their life, unless someone stops them. What do you do when you cant stop them?

what have i done? i've ignored them.

It cant be the right tactic, look at amy winehouse, she got even worse.But i dont know what to do short of being with them 24/7 and stopping them from ever getting near drugs. But that wont work, for one it's massively heavy handed, i'm not their only freind, and i get massively uncomfortable among alot of people. It's also a little creepy...

i dont know if i'll ever be able to talk to them until they look into my eyes and tell me that that will never do drugs again, i want that confirmation. I dont want to see them screw up their life, i know it isnt heavy usage now, but that can change very quickly, and i want to see them stop now, whilst they can.

Friday, 19 June 2009

Merry Fathers Day

As I'm sure you all know, Fathers Day is this Sunday(?), and I'm sure you're all busy wrapping presents for your Daddy. Personally, I don't have the money, but I'll get a him a card, not that the present I'm (not) getting is what I want to talk about today.

No, what I wish to talk about is my family, particularly my Dads side. My Grandparents divorced years before I was born, but in the early '60's my Grandmother was a baby producing machine, having a baby every year for 4 years, from 1960 to 1964. My Dad, whom my middle name is attributed to, is the second born, and the second son, his older brother Colin was logically the first born in 1960. The youngest son was my Uncle Kevin, followed by the youngest of the family and only daughter, Tina.

Amusingly, I find the attributes of each child of my grandparents gets progressively to my distaste compared to the position they were born in. My Uncle Colin has always been quite laid back, he seems happy in his job as an ambulance driver, if not particularly pleased with his pay check every month. He has 2 daughters of his own, and was a father figure to the son my aunt had in a previous relationship, all 3 of whom appear to have similar personalities to him, even if they wont like me saying so. Only one of them is still in school. My Dad, happens to earn the most out of the 4, and as he has aged and learnt from his experience leaving my Mum, he has become less stubborn, and more likable as a person, indicated by his bigger social life, almost completely gained from his new partner. Uncle Kevin is the typical "weird uncle" of the family, he has no children of his own, but is in a long term relationship with a woman who has 2 children both of which are past GCSE age. His viewpoints are politically incorrect, and he portrays himself as quite racist, however i do sense a bit of uncertainty when he says things of such manner, suggesting he may be saying things to gain "respect" from his family. My only Aunt, on my Dads side, is hard to describe singularly, she comes as a package with her immediate family, 2 post education children, an older girl (woman?) and the younger guy, and a girl whom will start secondary school next year, plus her husband. They are very quick to pass judgement on someone, and do express a distaste towards my family, particularly the way they feel me and my sister get off "Scot-free" with stuff, and i suspect they look at my badly for leaving school early, however i am yet to see how they will react towards me doing GCSEs. They have been described by certain people as the "stepford family", because they get along so well, they appear to be perfect, the children don't/didn't bicker and they express dislike in people whose family is not the convention. I don't particularly like my Aunts family much...

The reason i write all this is because there is a big meeting of my dads family for fathers day this Sunday, and this means we all get to meet up. As i say, I'm yet to see how my aunt reacts to my exam taking, and the fact i will have to leave early because i have one final exam on Monday morning. I will find it amusing to see what happens, not that i particularly want their respect or anything, i think it will be interesting if they treat me differently to how they have in recent years.


Friday, 12 June 2009


Above, is one of the pictures of Michael from the previous posts subject. I find it amusing and I do wish he gets to see it...

I made a few more from those images, I'll add them on here too.


Sunday, 31 May 2009


I'd like to share with my non-readers this little tidbit following my uploading of this album:
23:10 - Enraged: you hav about 5 seconds to remove all images of me + cease any attempt to continue to upload images of me
23:10 - Enraged: tos
23:10 - Enraged: 6.2 You represent and warrant that: (i) you own the Content posted by you on or through the Photobucket Services or otherwise have the right to grant the license set forth in this section, (ii) the posting and use of your Content on or through the Photobucket Services does not violate the privacy rights, publicity rights, copyrights, contract rights, intellectual property rights or any other rights of any person, and (iii) the posting of your Content on the Site does not result in a breach of contract between you and a third party. You agree to pay for all royalties, fees, and any other monies owing any person by reason of Content you post on or through the Photobucket Services.
23:10 - Enraged: you do not own the content of the images
23:10 - Enraged: ergo you must remove them
23:10 - - Alex-chan: bwhahaha
23:10 - - Alex-chan: you're such a fucking cunt
23:10 - Enraged: yes
23:10 - Enraged: but since iv met you
23:11 - Enraged: yesterday
23:11 - - Alex-chan: doesnt mean i'm gonna stop
23:11 - Enraged: iv had to do a lot of shit
23:11 - - Alex-chan: it's not like i've got pictures of your penis
23:11 - Enraged: you hav a picture of me - thats enough to get it removed
23:12 - Enraged: u gonna remove the pictures?
23:12 - - Alex-chan: bwhahahaha
23:12 - - Alex-chan: no
23:13 - Enraged: lol ok im mailing photobucket and asking them to remove the images
23:13 - - Alex-chan: and if you get them deleted i'll upload them on different servers
23:13 - - Alex-chan: again and again and again
23:13 - Enraged: k
23:13 - Enraged: u will spend both ur time and bandwidth doing that
23:13 - Enraged: and ill just copy and paste the same letter to each server admin
23:13 - - Alex-chan: bwhahaha
23:13 - Enraged: just changing "photobucket" to the appropriate service
23:14 - Enraged: and then eventually under ussc law subsection 19 ur isp will be probably contacted
23:14 - Enraged: imageshack + photobucket both apply
23:14 - Enraged: i know that 4 fact
23:14 - - Alex-chan: bwhahahaha
23:14 - Enraged: dont say i didnt warn u
23:14 - Enraged: im writing the letter now
23:19 - Enraged: Dear Sir/Madam,
I am writing concerning a breach of copyright. As stated in your TOS, image uploaders are required by section 6.2, to be the licensed owner of all content contained in the images. However, I am requesting that the images contained within the account of “An Idiot” (Link supplied in footnote,) have images containing the following person removed. (Example shown in footnote.) Please also proceed to warn the user that they should cease any further uploads of content containing the aforementioned person.

Yours sincerely,

Michael Vant.
23:19 - - Alex-chan: bwhahaha
I find this hillarious, and even more hillarious that he's being serious, i got this message 2 days after the last conversation:
16:13 - Enraged: iv now filed a dmca against ur sorry ass ^^
16:13 - Enraged: photobucket will immediately accept whiles facebook require formal notification
He is being such a fucking cunt, and as long as he gets them deleted i will reupload them, until he gives up.

nothing like a bit of teasing to combat irrationality, eh?

Sunday, 24 May 2009

How depressing + *EDIT*

A friend of mine has started going out with a boy recently, and I'm feeling alot of emotions over the matter. I'm not sure what they are though, jealousy? Anger? Annoyance? i dont know... she seems alot more distant than she used to be, and is always with her new boyfreind, whenever i text her or message her she immediately dismisses any coversation by saying her boyfreind is with her. i know it's a new relationship and this period will likely be over soon but it still annoys me.

I've met her boyfreind, he's a nice enough guy but i think he's changing her. I can never say he's changing her for the better or worse, because it's a point of view, but if i'm being honest, i dont like the more distant version of her. I suppose it's selfish to want her to go back to the way she was 3 weeks ago, if she's happy then that's all i could want for her.

I know she reads this blog, and i want her to know that as much as i respect your need for a partner and happiness, but dont forget your freinds, because we'll always be with you, and we dont want you to change into a different person.


After reading up on emotions, i think i understand the feelings i have, it's jealousy. Now, dont confuse jealousy with envy, it's slightly different, if i quote wikipedia:

The experience of jealousy involves:

  • Fear of loss
  • Suspicion or anger about betrayal
  • Low self-esteem and sadness over loss
  • Uncertainty and loneliness
  • Fear of losing an important person to an attractive other
  • Distrust

The experience of envy involves:

  • Feelings of inferiority
  • Longing
  • Resentment of circumstances
  • Ill will towards envied person often accompanied by guilt about these feelings
  • Motivation to improve
  • Desire to possess the attractive rival's qualities
  • Disapproval of feelings
knowing this has allowed my rational brain to reconsider the idea, and i know that new relationships are generally intense and the time they spend together will be less and less as the weeks go on they will see each other less, or the time they do spend together will be less "kissy kissy" and more "make me a cup of tea please". Either that or they'll break up, which is a distinct possibility for any relationship.

Saturday, 23 May 2009

I fucking hate chickens

I'm sitting here, right now, watching an episode of Come Dine With Me which i have seen about 4 times, on my own, in a cold, large house in the middle of nowhere, in Kent. Why am I here, I hear you ask? Because I'm looking after Chickens for my Dad. Chickens and a dog.

He's at a wedding, y'see. not that I particularly care where he is, I've mainly been playing the new Pokemon Platinum, which is fun, I guess. It's obviously very similar to Diamond and Pearl, essentially being a remake with extra things, Like how Yellow and Crystal were. I have noticed a MASSIVE increase in difficulty, however. Whenever I start a brand new pokemon game I choose the water pokemon, in this case Piplup, and I didn't struggle with the first gym, as I had the type advantage. Normally, by the 2nd gym I've normally gotten my starter Pokemon to a high enough level that I could beat any type of Pokemon with little fuss. However, this time I lost against the gym leader, who had the type advantage, about 4 or 5 times. This resulted in me having to spend about 30 minutes levelling up another pokemon to beat the gym leader.

This is surprisingly odd for a pokemon game, as you can normally get enough of a level advantage within about 2 hours of playtime. I beat my first run through of Pokemon Pearl in 18 hours, in Platinum, I currently have 5 badges, and 14 hours of playtime...

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

You fucking arrogant cunt.

i had a very heated argument with a freind today. he showed me the answers to the Maths GCSE we did. I said i had gotten about 70% in it and he, although he didnt say it explicitly, essentially said that it was rubbish...

something along the lines of:

everyone else got 80+

FFS you bastard, 70% is a great score, it's more than enough for a pass, and it's respectable. I know the reason why he thinks that, it's because his school, the one i used to go to has put it into his head that anything less than an A* is not acceptable, which is just bullshit AND it is not good for the people involved. it streses them and can affect them mentally in years to come, heck, it affected me whilst in the school, it's one of the reasons i left halfway through a year.

i find it arrogant to beleive that, and it shows that you have no reasoning ability, you cant just pass it off as exams getting easier, because once again that's bullshit. it's the tabloids being annoyed that the younger generation are cleverer. There is little to none practical difference between an A* and a B in the real world, and dont call someone stupid for getting it.